Ming’s Mind

Are humans ready to accept the truth?

I’ve
been thinking a lot, understanding a lot of people’s minds, and seeing
a lot of different perspectives after realizing that it’s impossible
for an almighty and benevolent God to exist.

And I’m scared.

I’m worried whether I’m really doing the right thing.

To tell you the truth, it takes a lot from person who’s been believing the existence of God to deny God’s existence.

It took a lot from me to deny the existence of something that I’ve been wishing to exist.
I’m scared of dying.
I’m scared of the future.
I’m scared of everything unknown.

And
the possibility that a greater power could exist — and I can’t get this
thinking out of my mind — scares me the most since if it really does
exist it mustn’t be an all-loving one; and I’m not talking anything
about religion here.

Most religions are failures.

Reading
a history book and starting to ask ‘why?’ on every little cruel thing
that happened in the past would prove that there couldn’t have been any
almighty and benevolent being helping humans — we’re all granted free
will after all…

And the fact that it couldn’t have been an all-loving being scares me the most…
I’m feeling like a guinea pig being experimented for some kind of psycho fun…

Life is such an uncertainty full of possibilities when you stopped believing in God.
I’ll leave this topic here since nobody knows for sure.

Morality issue is the greatest fear, now that I realize I’m living in real world filled with a lot of immoral people.

The
question is not whether God exists or not anymore but…will those
people who are willing to kill others because of their belief in God be
a better person without their religion?

Surely they did it because of their religion, but we can’t blame the religion for doing that.

Humans are the most amazing creatures I’ve known on earth and we’re beautiful.

We are able to think and reason.
We do have our own ego…but we’re able to love.

Being
an Atheist (?) I have an even greater reason to live a good life since
I believe it’s more possible that this is the only life I’ve got and I
have to live it good and to the fullest…it makes me able to realize
that when I’m doing good deeds to my fellow human beings I’m doing it
because I wanted to, not because of the eternal fire threat from a
so-called benevolent deity.

Those other people who killed because of their belief in God are so pitiful.
They’re doing something based solely on their faith, not facts.
They’ve treated a real and living human being lower than something that can’t be proven.
They’re so lost and this is why I’m saying that religions are failures — for being one of the causes.

…yet
religions can make those ignorant  and selfish people to be scared of
God and hell and hold them back from doing the extremes (although some
are encouraged to do the extremes by some certain religion…)

What I’m scared of is, when those people finally believe that God doesn’t exist…

What can hold them back from doing cruel things to other human beings if those kind of people aren’t afraid of hell anymore…?

Moral degradation is my biggest fear…

Although some would say that religion is the cause of the moral degradation and some believe that you are what you are regardless of your religion.

*poke*

Oh!!! I’ve just been told that I’m actually an Agnostic!!!
Are you a believer, Atheist, or Agnostic?

Am I doing the right thing…?